For National Eating Disorder Awareness Week,
“Recovery is not meant to be easier than listening to your eating disorder. Recovery is often much worse than living with your eating disorder. However, recovery has an end goal of enjoying life and freedom, whereas the eating disorder had one end point; certain misery, or even death.”
Eating disorders are the deadliest of all mental disorders, yet the most misunderstood. People don’t understand that it’s not just about being skinny… But I can tell you what it is like. Losing all the people that you were once so close to, constant guilt for eating LITERALLY anything, heart monitors, obsessively counting calories, self hatred, constant nightmares, making your loved ones cry because they just want you to get better, low blood pressure, losing your hair, your worth is based on a number that’s never small enough, depression, anxiety, OCD, and hospitals. Eating disorders are not something that should ever be idolized, and the most deadly killer of the disease is silence. I am in recovery for an eating disorder and I am not ashamed of that.
- (via razor-bladesandvodka)